Dissolution of My Self

"I sometimes still forget that he is a living, breathing person. You can't blame me. If someone were covered head to toe in usefulness, you'd forget they were a person too." Incredible writing and great art direction. The characters are convincing to a horrifying degree. I wish the text box UI, where your eyes are trained for the longest portion of the game, were more centered rather than to the far right of the screen. Still, it's a minor discomfort and hardly enough to take away from the experience. Do not be fooled by the short playtime, this game is a very complete experience and more than worth it.

第一阶段初见端倪。第二阶段音乐挺好听的，很带感。完全‘放弃治疗’后面的阶段和结局让我也是完全没想到，[spoiler] 赫克托也是选择返璞归真变成婴儿，这样的话就能够实现部分自己心中所想。虽然大部分经典桥段（类似剧情）最后的结局都是崩溃后失忆或者是自杀什么的…[/spoiler] 建议字速开慢一点。目前来说剧情偏带感，很好。 [spoiler] 第一次是以全程放弃治疗打的结局…重新解体的时候竟然不忍继续，放在按键上会有十分痛苦的声音，不用想也知道。所以一度不知是否该重新来…打完一个结局的新页面是挺惊喜的[/spoiler] 就像是评论里面我看到了有说‘感觉作者像是摸过很久的同人’这个味还真是，很对头啊，对于好这口的人来说真的很上头、很带感呢。 正所谓越品越好品。[spoiler] 我不知道有没有人想过“为了一个人而活着的感觉。一个人，就是自己的全世界。做什么也好想什么也罢，全是他。无论是爱、恨、伤、痛苦、开心…都是因为他而感受所以就会幸福会沉沦会变成一个不像自己的人，这个人是‘我’吗？还是为了他所变换成的‘我’不过也就无所谓了，因为有在他所以，无论如何都好”这种感觉，我倒是有过，所以还真共鸣一些赫克托的感受，不是哥们…“因为是为了他所以才一直坚持下去，想感受到想看到更多…关于他的一切。所以在一直‘放弃治疗’最后发现他眼中的自己依然和‘镜中自我’所说的一样，两者之间矛盾，那这个‘自我’该如何补全？”说实话，当外认知评价不足以补全‘自我’的时候，赫克托就出现了身边东西对自己说话的幻想，是这样的吧？这样的话就合理了（笑）[/spoiler][spoiler] 一个人逃避了所有，唯独剩下他陪伴在自己身边，所感受到的就只有一个人对自己的反馈，那这个‘自我’是不完全的。所以当他们的矛盾或者不合理之处，暴露在赫克托面前时，什么都不去想也是理所应当的。因为对于爱情所需要的条件来说，亲情更容易达成吗？（婴儿，只有婴儿才能什么都不去作为，什么都不去想，只需要依靠只需要索取就好了，正如赫克托崩溃时想的一样，如果这样什么都无法改变，那…那就只能改变掉困扰这个事情的最简单的源头，自己。只要什么都忘掉，什么都不去想就好了）[/spoiler][spoiler] 其实看得出来马特维把赫克托当小孩一样，但是也不完全都这样。怎么说呢，有种含在嘴里怕化了捧在手里怕碎了，但是又期待对方像救世主一样拯救国家于‘水火之中’，但是，可以做到吗？这是期待的吗？双方的期望都不一样，这就是矛盾所在的地方。赫克托就像他期待的一样，他想要的是‘两个人的家’，而马特维想要的是‘服侍他所忠诚的王’。两者之间不能说一样只能说很难说。正所谓听君一言，胜读一言。说白了我又白说了。[/spoiler]品就完事了。 而且描写很细节，可能是因为游玩类型的原因？ 额外说一句配音很贴脸，不错。cg也好看，我猛猛吃就完事了。 [spoiler] 很喜欢关于‘镜中自我’这个概念。说得很好嘛，成为‘谁’的时候终究是要失去点什么的（笑） [/spoiler] 还有，我很喜欢关于这个游戏里提及的大部分概念。挺好的。

是叔叔是哥哥是妈妈是妻子...扭曲又畸形的爱...美味又震撼的一部骨科蔷薇游戏! [spoiler]男主这个甚至可以跟大衣手铐对话，在家频繁自杀，手抖也不知道是躯体化还是喝酒喝多了的症状，以及不断缺失的记忆....真的是药不能停啊！（非常适合精神病患者共情 [/spoiler] 打完两条线了，总体来说弃疗线更带感一些，毕竟吃药线感觉就是清醒着的沉沦反而更痛苦了。以及结尾看wiki的时候背景音真的特别掉san，但是这又是本作唯一一个较为客观能进行剧情补全的资料，看完或许也能理解为什么他这么宠他，而他又为什么一蹶不振...好惨好美，唉，结合这个背景也真是无力。 美中不足就是这些人名地名看得比较头痛，完全记不住这种五六个字长度的名词dbq。小壁垒大概是本作主攻视角第一人称，而且应该是非常需要对电波的作品，可能不太适合极端受控也不适合一些健全人阅读

非常纯爱（嗯，我是认真的）我对纯爱的理解很混沌，自己都解释不清，但本作就是契合我心底的定义，即无论有多少疯狂多少卑鄙裹挟，只要描绘出的情绪是真诚炽烈的，那就足够了。 菠萝干里疯子不要太多，年下把年上当妈咪的文也看过不少，但如本作这样层层深入，透彻勾勒出病态心境给人说服力的bl文本真的很稀少。玩之前以为是猎奇小菜，不成想作品以不算长的篇幅铺设出极具层次感的叙事空间。主角的形象让我联想到《我的帝王生涯》，而作为背景的整个社会形态的模拟甚至营造出奥康纳小说的氛围。 ps：特别喜欢描写索菲亚王后的部分，我把那个片段分享给了我的导师，她想到左传中姜氏同样因为难产而不喜庄公.......唉，古往今来身处权力中心、却仍受生育诅咒的女性共同的悲哀

I have never been interested in BL games in my life and this is also the first BL game in my library... it turned out to be a really great experience. Hector is a nasty nephew but after finishing the game it seems I'm more afraid of Matvey than him now lol I admire Matvey's loyalty to the kingdom but his patience is so far beyond that of an ordinary person it makes me feel deeply uncomfortable... I really hope there will be DLC told from Matvey's perspective in the future, that would be fascinating since his character still leaves behind so many questions and highly suspicious.. Thank you so much for a great game, I love your writing so much.. one of the best games I've played this year I will give 100000/10

Dissolution of My Self is a psychologically heavy point-and-click horror experience built around memory, identity, dependency, and the gradual destruction of a person's sense of self. Developed and published by Pop Elephant Studio, it favors intimate storytelling over conventional horror mechanics. There are no elaborate combat systems or constant monsters pursuing the protagonist. Instead, the game places much of its emotional weight inside a confined rented room, transforming everyday objects into reminders of a complicated past. This small-scale approach gives the experience a claustrophobic atmosphere in which personal history becomes more frightening than anything supernatural. The story follows Hector, an exiled prince who has lost his homeland, political standing, security, and much of the identity that once defined him. He now shares a modest room with Matvey, his uncle and former aide-de-camp. Matvey works as an unlicensed electrician to support them, creating a striking reversal in their relationship. Hector may have once possessed considerable authority, yet his current circumstances leave him heavily dependent on the very person he continues to treat with remnants of aristocratic superiority. Their relationship becomes the emotional center of the game, mixing family ties, loyalty, resentment, affection, control, vulnerability, and unhealthy dependency. Rather than presenting Hector's history in a straightforward sequence, the game encourages players to reconstruct it by examining objects scattered throughout the room. Items such as medicine bottles, furniture, windows, and the television can trigger fragments of memory. The order in which these objects are investigated influences how the player encounters Hector's past, allowing the story to feel fragmented and personal without becoming a traditional branching narrative. There is ultimately one ending, so the emphasis is less about changing Hector's destiny and more about deciding how his damaged history is uncovered. This structure works particularly well because Hector's perspective cannot always be accepted as objective truth. Memories are filtered through his unstable emotional condition, forcing the player to consider how much of what appears on screen is accurate and how much may have been distorted by trauma, denial, medication, or his own interpretation of events. The resulting uncertainty makes seemingly simple interactions meaningful. Instead of solving elaborate mechanical puzzles, players are essentially solving the protagonist himself, gradually assembling a portrait of someone whose understanding of reality and identity has become increasingly fragile. One of the game's most effective ideas is the way the environment changes alongside Hector's psychological deterioration. Objects connected to awakened memories can become blurred and increasingly unusable as pieces of his identity are relinquished. This creates a tangible representation of self-erasure. Discovering memories would normally suggest recovery or enlightenment, but here the process carries a darker implication. Every revelation potentially moves Hector closer to abandoning another part of himself, giving progression an intentionally uncomfortable quality. The relationship between Hector and Matvey adds another layer of unease. Their connection cannot easily be classified as purely familial, romantic, hierarchical, or dependent because aspects of all these dynamics overlap. Hector needs Matvey for practical and emotional survival while simultaneously directing cruelty and resentment toward him. Matvey's continued loyalty complicates matters further. The narrative examines how devotion can become unhealthy when affection, responsibility, power, guilt, and dependency are allowed to merge. Players should not expect a comforting relationship drama, as the game deliberately explores disturbing and morally difficult territory. Its horror is therefore primarily psychological. Traditional jump scares and physical threats are not the main attraction. The tension comes from discovering what happened between the characters and recognizing how deeply their identities have become intertwined. The confined setting reinforces the feeling that there is nowhere for Hector to escape from his memories. Occasional dark humor provides brief changes in tone, but these moments rarely eliminate the underlying discomfort. The presentation complements this approach through hand-drawn artwork with surreal and noir-inspired qualities. The visual style helps distinguish reality from emotionally distorted recollections without making those boundaries completely obvious. Japanese voice acting adds personality to the character interactions, while the combination of visual-novel storytelling and point-and-click exploration gives players enough participation to keep the experience from feeling entirely passive. The mechanics remain deliberately straightforward because narrative interpretation is clearly the priority. Content is considerably darker than the relatively simple gameplay might initially suggest. Themes include psychological manipulation, self-harm, violence, substance misuse, trauma, regression, disturbing intimacy, and an intensely dysfunctional relationship between relatives. Some scenes and descriptions may be uncomfortable for sensitive players, and stronger screen-shaking effects appear later in the experience. Anyone considering the game should understand that its disturbing material is fundamental to the story rather than incidental background content. Steam Deck compatibility is currently best treated as unverified rather than officially confirmed as Verified or Playable. The point-and-click and visual-novel structure is mechanically suitable for portable play, but players should not assume complete controller optimization, ideal text readability, or flawless compatibility without an official Steam Deck rating. Touchscreen or trackpad input may make interaction more convenient if conventional controller support proves limited. The game's main weakness is that its mechanical scope is intentionally narrow. Players expecting substantial puzzles, multiple endings, combat, extensive exploration, or major choice-driven consequences may find it restrictive. However, those limitations also allow the narrative to remain concentrated. Every important object and memory contributes to the central themes rather than distracting the player with unnecessary systems. Dissolution of My Self succeeds most strongly as an unsettling character study disguised as a small point-and-click horror game. Its fractured memories, unreliable perspective, deteriorating environment, and deeply unhealthy central relationship create an experience designed to provoke interpretation rather than deliver conventional scares. It will not appeal to everyone, especially given its provocative themes and limited mechanical variety, but players interested in experimental psychological storytelling may discover something unusually intimate and memorable. Rating: 8/10

Love is cruel because it has so many conditions; familial affection is cruel because it asks for nothing at all. 喜欢故事的主题和结局喵。

yeah uh i didnt like this. i like every trope this game has, i literally LOVE codependent toxic incest yaoi. but this wasn't it. i found it boring and hard to read. the artstyle didn't fit their characters (the nephew looks literally older than the uncle, not to mention an ex military looking like a cutesy bubbly twink? nah... this wasnt it.) so yeah my fujos, i didn't enjoy it. read hikizuru oto by harada in 3 minutes to get 5 times the better writing, save your time and have a nice day